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♥ Thursday, December 31, 2009 @ 10:54 AM

love is blind lyrics....

Ramzi feat. Ash King

I see you all the time
Never see you smile
I try to picture what's going on in your mind
He leaves you every night by yourself
He took your love and put it on the shelf
He doesn't really care� how you feel...
You should be moving on girl what's the deal?
I wana see you out that door... cuz girl you know your worth much more

So baby tell me why�you stick around
Always lonely and you only wear a frown
He don't treat you good and you know
The only thing left is for you to go
You shouldn't live a lie with someone
When deep inside you know he ain't the one
I don't know what to say no more
I wana see you out that door

Yah azizi (yo precious) is mahiri
I really don't wanna see u cry
Mujko samjho dil peh mat lo (understand me don't take it to heart)
Don't wana see another tear in your eye
Baby break away
Let him go
I don't know he's done to you
But I know that it's time to move on
Girl your is love blind

Girl I understand
That you're scared
And you feel that you might never love again
But baby that ain't true
No no no
I know that there some there for you
Someone that will see
That you are worth
An undiscovered treasure on this earth
Girl you know your worth so much more
Wana see you out that door

♥ @ 10:33 AM

i noe who i am...

bby...iam sorry...
i noe u hate my attitude...i noe im emo sometimes,but diz is me...if u really noe me,diz is my true self...im not hiding anything...i luv u soo much bby and i'll try to change myself step by step for the better...u may scold me if u want..i noe its my fault for saying all those emo thingy...from now onwards,i wont show my emotions anymore...i'll kept it to myself...but fyi,im diagnosed wif low blood pressure and im not allow to kept all this to myself cause it will stress me and will then make my blood level becoming more lower than before...but its ok bby...i'll do anything as long as ur hapie wif it...i wont show my emotions to u again...im sorry bby...i noe my attitude suckz...i'll change it...for u bby...i realised,im not gd enough for u and i alweiz hurt ur feelings by my words...i apologise for everything...maybe u deserve someone better than me....and it hurts me to realise that...

♥ @ 10:24 AM

working...

after work... & during work.... in Sakura International Buffet Restaurant....

♥ @ 10:19 AM

roziana...diz is me....

..........it must be hard to see the person u luv change before ur eys,knowing u cn do nothing abt it...and it must be harder to think of what they were once........

♥ @ 9:16 AM

screwed up kinda way...

hie there...
soo sorie for the late updatez..
been bz lately wif work & some other family problem...haizz...
kayy2,lets get started..

my 1st dae at work was quite fine..get to make new frenz and work in a new environment...i reached my workplace at ard 4:50pm...i must be there by 5pm,soo yeah i reached there early...yay! fadhilla waited for me at the bus stop & we went in the restaurant together..we waited and waited outside the restaurant for the manager...suddenly,1 guy ask us who we are looking for..soo,fadhilla told him we are reporting for work...he called the manager and we got our uniform and fasten our way to the ladies to change to our restaurant uniform..used apron somemore...hahaa.. i get to make new frenz wif zura,rais,aliff,shahidat,nazri,alvin,khai...they are frenly and nice ppl...very helpful and smile alot :)

yesterdae...30/12/09

mit fiza in the bus and went straight to work...mit our Sakura manager,hafriz...i told hafriz that i want to work in the mawning shift but he told me i must also work in the nite shift...walao...he think i robot iz it?no time to rest and work all dae...i felt soo damn tired seyh...me and fiza start our work at 11:45am and we were soo bz during the lunch hour...theres alot of reservation for tables and theres alot of plates,utensils and watsoever shud be cleared in the shortest time...i didnt get to rest...after the lunch hr,i was told to clear all the plates and bring it bck to the kitchen & polish fork,spoon and knives...it was soo shiny that i cn see my face in the reflection of the spoon...mcm cermin seyhh...hehee...it was fun working there...but at the same time...i cnt described the fatigue feeling i felt after work...

umm...at the same time,im facing other problem too..
its easy for ppl to say,but it isnt easy for me to face it myself...i dun like to fight...and i didnt understand why ppl kip on doing all kinds of things to make me feel down and i felt so as if im useless...and theres person,iz someone soo close to me..she's my own biological sister...but,she's doing all diz that screwed everything in my life...she's threatening me every single dae...warning me & asking me to watch out for her...why iz she doing all diz to me?...i nvr did anything that she hates,but i dont noe why she hv the heart to do such a thing to me...haizz...maybe because im alweiz give in to her...maybe thats why she did diz to me...if only she knew how much i care abt her,how much i luv her more than myself even if i get the scolding and so on...i still luv her and i wont hv the heart to threaten her or do such a thing to her coz she's my only sis...one and only sista...maybe Allah swt is testing me,testing my perseverance level..i'll accept it...thx Allah....test me wif everything and i'll learn to accept it...

♥ Monday, December 28, 2009 @ 9:45 PM

if only.....

i was surfing the net & i found this while looking for quotes....soo,i wanna share something to all...

it was soo shweet if a guy do such a thing for a girl...

I want a guy who I can laugh at, with, and who will laugh at me and neither of us would care that each other is laughing. I want a guy who would see what I look like when I’m sleeping and when I wakeup and still not care. Who thinks I’m funny when I don’t try to be, who is there for me all the time... mostly when needed, a guy who will do the small things that matter the most in the world to a girl. like calling at 1:00 am saying he couldn’t sleep because he was thinking of her. Who comes over without asking just to say hey before going to work. Who says close your eyes i have a surprise and takes me to go get ice-cream just for the hell of it. Who will call me in the middle of the day just to ask we if i am ok.. Who cares about my feelings... Who wont hurt me and makes me cry,because hurting me means hurting him more deeper...Basically a guy who will love me sincerely and faithfully...

awww!soo shweet lerr...if only theres such a guy this daez...

♥ @ 8:55 PM

im back!!!

hie there...im back again!

first i wanna say...congratez to Sezairi!
yay!!!yay!!!yay!!!im soo hapie lerr!want to noe why??hehee...coz Sezairi Sezali won the Singapore Idol...weeewiit!!!!congratez Sezairi!!! :) i support him all the way from the start and i noe he cn make it to the top..and yes,he did! he deserve it coz he has the potential and he hv his own style & x-factor that made him get to that stage..wow! i supported him bcoz i noe he iz different unlike other contestant... he's a musician and im sure he will succeed in his career and life...insyaallah,amin...semoga berjaya Sezairi!u hv all my support!! :)

todae...
i went out wif Fiza,Dayah,Zabir & Fiza's mum to Kovan...we went there to shop for things and mkn...ahaha...we decided to eat lunch at Mcdonalds,so we ate there...while i was eating my fries,fiza told me that theres a guy keep looking towards me...i was like 'huh' sape seyh...fiza told me to look at that guy,so i took the courage to turn my head and look at him... guess who was it?..i was so shocked to see my ex bf,Taufiq...in the same Mcdonald,and seated in the same row as me...haizz...when i saw him,i faster turn my head to the front and i dun wanna turn back again...coz i hv my own principle in life 'dont dwell on the past coz the road of the life was nvr meant to be travelled backwards'...i dont want to dwell on the past memories,it hurts way too much already...fiza asked me whose that guy,i told her he's my ex and i dont which to look at him again...but,fiza told me that the guy still look at me...i look down and continue eating my fries...suddenly,my ex came towards the place where im seated and he said that he wanna talk to me for awhile...i insisted..i told fiza's mum to say to him that i dont want to talk to him anymore...but,he still insist....i ask for fiza's help to follow me and she accompany me...taufiq told me that he still luv me and wants to continue back our past relationship...i look up and told him i am sorie..and i speak the truth that i already hv a bf and i dont want to betray my bf trust...i told taufiq not to disturb me anymore and i hope he understand...i luv my bf and i dont want to betray his love that he has given me... taufiq,i am sorry..i cnt accept u in my life anymore...pls forgive me for hurting ur feelings...i am sorry taufiq...
same goes to that few guys out there that keeps disturbing me wif all kinds of luvvy luvvy messsages saying u'll wait for me no matter what happens and luv me..i hope,u guys cn stop all diz from now onwards...as i already said before,i hv a bf and i dont want to betray him coz i luv him so much.....im sorry guys...[i hope that few guys noe who im referring to]...we cn be frenz but i cnt accept u guys more than that...as a gerl,i wanna be faithful towards my guy and i want to last long wif him,insyaallah..amin..
Try putting urself in my shoe,im sure u also want to be faithful towards ur lover,rite?same as me,i wanna be faithful towards my guy....try to understand my situation now... Guys,im sorie...we cn only be frenz...

its not easy to built trust towards others..but its easy to destroy it in secs...from the past,i'hv learned to accept and letting go...this 2 things are important in life...but,onces trust are being betrayed,no one will ever believe it anymore...if someone give their fullest trust towards u,pls dont take it for granted...u might think they dont noe that ur betraying their trust but,one dae u'll see they actually noe the truth abt u and there wouldnt be any trust for u from that point of time...trust iz the main priority here,if trust are gone..nothing is left behind anymore...think abt it....

♥ Sunday, December 27, 2009 @ 11:00 AM

i wish i could find a word to say

sorie late updatez..
yesterdae,it was a rainy dae..bt,im delightful coz i get to spent some precious moments wif sis Fiza..i went to her house and reached there at ard 2:45pm..it was raining heavily at that area..i went up to her house and she's alone[her parents went out to people's wedding]...while waiting for the rain to stop,we surf the net and listened to songs..she played the song entittled 'Dekat padamu' from Yusry KRU...that song really touches my soul seyhh...felt soo sendu at that point of time...i luv dat song!thx sis Fiza!!! :)
while surfing the net..at ard 3:10pm..i received a phone call..guess who iz it from???kayy2,dun want to make it suspend...it's from SAKURA..[woooww!thats wat i hv been waiting for all diz while!haha]the manager of Sakura said to me that im starting my first job on diz coming tuesdae,29 dec 09..yahooo!!!best lerrr!all i noe iz dat i wont be feeling bored anymore...yeshhh!haha...after i end my conversation wif my manager..i told Fiza the whole thing..then,fiza suddenly received a phone call too!!hahhaa...and its none other than the manager of Sakura..but sadly,me and fiza didnt start our work on the same dae...fiza start 1 dae later than me & fadhilla which iz on the 30 of Dec 09...wait!at least,the 3 of us get to work together in the same place...syukur alhamdullilah...terima kasih ya Tuhan...the 3 of us was soo hapie lerr seyhh!no wordz cn ever describe the happiness we shared..hehee..
soo,let's continue again kayy...at ard 3:35pm..me & fiza went out together..thx for accompanying me find my black pants,black socks and black shoes sis :) i appreciate it soo muchiie deariee!!!i dont noe how to repay ur gd deeds that u hv done for me sis...terime kasih byk2 awk!ahahaa...we went to Toa Payoh and bought all the thingy...cpt seyhh kiteorg shopping smlm!!hehe..we ate ice cream and drank bubble tea[our priorities whenever we go out together lerr katekn..hehehee] we then,went to Toa Payoh bus interchange and took bus no.26 to Bedok...the journey was worth while...hahaha...we reached there at ard 6 plus..and we walk towards our makan place...Long John Silvers!!!yahooo!!i felt soo hungry already and when we reached LJS,we choose our place to sit and fasten our way to the counter to order our food..after dat,we ate & chat..ate & chat..hahah...after we finished our food..we went for a walk at ard Bedok area and at ard 7:25pm we took bus no.25 bck...in the bus,we talk & talk & talk....hehhee...laugh also..!!!then,we stop at fiza's old house area and walk to the other side of the bus stop to take bus 113...from there,we go seperate ways...she went bck and i took bus bck to my home shweet home...ahahha...like usual,i waited for 15 mins for my bus to arrived...in the bus,im feeling abit fatigued but that was fine...haha...yesterdae,it was such a great dae!!! thx sis for everything ;)

♥ Friday, December 25, 2009 @ 8:08 PM

bored..bored..bored

i cnt wait for tmr to come...hehee..coz tmr going out wif fiza...todae didnt mit her...kinda miz her seyhh..see u soon sista!

i miz my boifey..todae iz the 3rd dae since we last met..umm...bby,if u want to noe,i miz u soo badly taw..i luv u darling..wat ever it is,i pray for ur safety bby...do takkaire..enjoy ur 2 weeks holidae dear :) ily!!!

the 2 of them are so important to me...they brightens up my dae and nite!thx bby!thx sis!!!luv u!

♥ @ 5:33 PM

im feeling soo bored..haizz...

heyleww everyone! im bck again!!!

merry christmas to all :)!!!
yesterdae i had soo much fun spending time wif sis fiza and her family members..we went to Sengkang swimming complex and we enjoy ourself there [hehee..swimming larhh katekn,but im not a gd swimmer] hahaa...before that,i went to sis fiza's house at ard 1+ pm to go there together wif all of them..we reached there at 2:45pm and we saw soo many parents bringing their children there and like everyone,im soo excited to swim..coz its been a very long period since i last went to swimming..hahaa..after that,me and fiza changed into our swimming suit..i remember,i told fiza this "sis,awk gy swim dulu kae ngn dorg,..kite tk nk basah..kite nk ddk dulu"..out of a sudden fiza splash the swimming pool water towards me and im wet from head to toe..hahaha...[padan muke kite..]hehee..after that we swam and play wif water juz like small children.. then,fiza asked me something.."sis,awk nk try naik slide tuu???"i answered "slide yg mane satu??"she pointed at the 2 slide...[the slide is very high..and..umm...i..i actually afraid of heights..hehe]i was soo shocked and i think and think and think before i make my final decision..i wanna overcome my fear which is afraid of height,if i dun overcome it now,than when ryte??...soo,i told fiza,alrite i'll give it a try to test myself and my ability...me and fiza fasten our way up the staircase to the highest slide,and when i reached up there i felt soo NERVOUS...feel like taking back my words..but i dont,i still proceed wif it...I WANNA OVERCOME MY WEAKNESSES..teeheeee..when we first sat at the slide,i told fiza this.."sis,bleh pegang tangan kite?kite nga takut niee"..she said yes and she hold onto my hands..when the lifeguard told us to "GO"..i was like,umm okae lets give it a try..hahaa...we slide down the highest slide and at that point of time all that i remember is to say my prayers non stop till we reached the bottom..before we reached the bottom,the slide became more slippery and it was soo soo soo fast that when its going to reached the pool i get shocked by it and i shouted soo loud and i went directly inside the pool..[like i said juz now im not gd in swimming,and i felt like i was drowning..i found myself breathless..i need oxygen...] sis,im sorie for pulling ur hands..im not gd in swimming and i breathe that's the reason why...thx sis for lending me a helping hand..though im afraid,im soo thankful to u sis for telling me to overcome my fear :) i had soo much fun trying that...hehehee..i juz want to tell everyone this.."if we dont overcome our weakness ourself,no one cn overcome it for us"...i wanna take this opportunity to thank fiza and her family..!hehe..at ard 4:55pm,we are told by fiza's aunt that we hv to go now,soo we rush to the ladies and take our bath..the toilet was full and we hv to wait outside for our turn..while waiting i remember something!my boifey!!! i quickly searched my bag for my hp and theres 2 new updates..[the 2 thing is from my boifey..he msg me but my hp was not wif me when i swam,so i guess that's the reason why theres 1 missed call]..bby,im sorie for not rplying ur msg and didnt pick up ur call..i am sorry bby...ok than,after that..i quickly call my bby[im referring to my boifey] while waiting for my turn to take my bath..he asked me wat im doing so i told him that im at Sengkang swimming complex and i asked bby,where iz he now...he told me his at Hougang Mall eating ice cream..[yummy!!!]hehee...btw,i miZ u bby!!!he's the light to my darkness..awww! :) kayy2,after talking wif bby i take my bath..then,fiza,dayah,me and nilam fasten our way coz fiza's father dh smpi to pick all of us and bring us to makan...hahha..we went to Compass Point and ate at Banquet..fiza's father treats everyone..thx pakcik :D!! me and fiza ate fried kway teow..but the different iz mine is fried kway teow wif cockles whereas fiza's fried kway teow wif seafood..it was soo delicious! yummyy!!!hehe..after we finished our food & drink,we proceed our way to Kovan Hub...hahha...inside the van,otw to Kovan it was soo funnie when the van stops and we all accidentally moved forward...ahaha...fun seyh! by 7+pm,we reached Kovan..we went to Kovan Hub and we cnt take out eyes from this particular dress..i was soo nice..im soo attracted to that dress..[hmm..] we looked ard and see soo many clothes wif acceptable price..woww![tk ble tahan seyhh tgk baju lawa2]...but sadly,i cnt buy that first..i must buy wat's important for now..coz on the 28 dec im starting my new work...hehee...soo,i need to buy black shoes,black socks and black pants...haizz...soo many seyhh...wat to do,dh naseb lerr katekn...hahaha...after side-seeing,we went bck..fiza's father send me to the bus-stop[thx again pakcik..thx soo muchiie yea]..i waited for my bus to arrived..i waited almost 25 mins then my bus arrived..i took bus bck home...in the bus,i fell asleep and i ended up at Yio Chu Kang bus interchange..[hahaa :p] i dun noe how i cn fall asleep..maybe bcoz im too tired..not to worie,theres 1 straight bus to my house..so i took that bus and went back home...when i reached home,i take my bath again and i went to sleep...[sleepie already lerr] i really enjoy yesterdae outing!!!luv it alot..! and,bby if ur reading this..im missing u bby!miz u soo muchiie!!! till then okei,do takkaire ppl !!!

♥ Wednesday, December 23, 2009 @ 8:23 PM

New Blog .

Hi ..

just created this blog. Thx to Sis Fiza.

She helped me wif all the layout. I dnt knw do all dis. So ask for her help.

Yestrday night went to Sis Fiza hse. Then we webcam. Go down eat ice-cream. Teeeheee! Fun!

We enjoy goin out tgt!!

Ok thn.

Bye :D