♥ Friday, January 29, 2010 @ 8:21 AM
assalamualaikum to all Muslim ...
gd mawnink...! to all,wakie-wakie people!
arggggghhhh!!!!diz mawnink i woke up wif a bad sore throat and a flu...sad siaaa...hard to swallow saliva,feel like thorns poking my throat...pain lerr....
oh yeshhhh!!!first of all,i wanna dedicate diz for my love love love sis fiza...thx to her for changing for me my blogskin...thx alot dear....i luv it like i love you sis...and see u soon later onwards...btw,jgn lupe mam panadol tawuuuuu....hehee...hope u recover soon sis! :)
yesterdae,after work i went bck home and took my bathe then i went out again to mit bby...like usual,im late....and yes,i am sorry bby for keeping u waiting for me to come...we met at Toa payoh mrt station...then we head down to toa payoh hub then to kfc...we had our dinner at kfc...while eating,we talk & talk & talk abt everything that happens....it was fun talking to bby...btw bby,i love you dear....after dinner,we walk bck to toa payoh interchange to take a bus home...bby send me near to my house area but then we plan to hv a chit-chat again....soo,we sat down at the void deck to talk abt our 4th months anniversary...insyaallah,amin....till now,i hvnt decide where to celebrate our anniversary yet...but i'll tell u kae bby when i already decide....btw bby,if u hv anything in mind to suggest,do tell me tawuuu...and yes,im worried now....im worried abt bby's condition...bby's coughing real bad and i felt bad for not bringing u to consult a doctor...bby,u must go for a check up...whenever ur claz ends early,do tell me,i wanna bring u to go to clinic for a check up....ur coughing real bad and i dun want to wait till its at the worst stage...i risao tawuu...as a gf,i want to be a responsible and caring ones....i want to take care of u while ur sick and see u recover as the time pass...
13 more daez to go....before our 4th anniversary[ 10/01/10 ]....insyaAllah,amin....time flies soo fast,it feels like i juz got to noe u yesterdae thru tagged....i admit that theres many ups and down happening...dae after dae,months after months...i cnt deny that i fall in love wif u bby even deeper & deeper everytime i fall....i dun ask for anything from u bby for our anniversary...i juz want to make a request....juz a small request...i juz want u to be truthful,faithful and sincere towards me thats all i ever need....i juz hope everything that onces used to happen between us,such as the conflict + arguments wont happen again this time...let the conflicts and arguments that we once had that time be a lesson for us to be a better person for one another....although i still cnt forget wat it feels like to be hurt by u that time when i saw u wif her,i tried to forget it juz for our sake...like i used to say before,i dun like to dwell on the past coz the road of life was nvr meant to be travel backwards...i tried to figure out wat when wrong whenever theres conflict between us.....and if im at fault,i am sorry....im not perfect,im full of imperfections....i do make mistakes at some point of time and make u angry or got pissed off by my attitude....i admit that....and im ready to say my apologise....coz i believe in this quotation thats says 'do amend your mistakes before its too late'....and i'll amend my mistakes before anything happens.....bby,i am sorry for every single thing i ever did to u...i noe my attitude sucks....i noe that i hv a vr bad mood swing...i noe,u noe that im a rebellious girl...i admit it...fiza knows how bad my mood cn be....ryte sis???diz is me,the real me...i'hv not change since the dae we get to noe each other till now....and,i think theres something abt me,that i think that as a bf of mine u shud noe this...whenever im down and get hurt,i'll usually be by myself....i wont want to talk to anyone...i wont want to fake a smile...i wont show people that im crying,i'll cry myself w/o no one noticing it...and i'll keep everything to myself whenever im sad and hurt.....its easy for me to ask for forgiveness and forgive someone,but it isnt gonna be easy for my to forget wat they onces did to me....im telling u this bcoz im being truthful to u....i want u as my bf to noe my true self....diz is the true me,im not hiding anything....this is me,the girl that loves you......
P.S: Nothing Gonna Change My Love For You Baby...
♥ Wednesday, January 27, 2010 @ 3:07 PM
assalamualaikum...... :)
afternoon everyone!!!
i juz woke up from a short nap...coz im soo sleepie lerr...yesterdae worked split shift...tired lorrrr....haizz...
todae off dae..yay!!! finally,at last!i got to rest at home peacefully...hehee...but,juz now i receive a short msg from my manager..he ask me if i cn work tonite,i told him i cnt...plsssss...for once,let me hv my rest cn?....i need a rest....pleaseeee manager......
wait...!omg!!!!!my mama came to my house...oh NO!!!!she's here now at the hall talking to granny...ishhh!why is she here?argghhhh...pls understand,its not that i dislike her but im afraid of her....she wants to bring me to that b_ _ _ _...i dun want!mama plsss...pls dun do diz to me....i dun want to be separated from him....pls understand me will u mama...u cn do anything to me if u want,but pls dun harm my bf...since the dae i knew she wanna bring me to that b_ _ _ _,i dun dare to speak to her....im soo frighten..its like a nightmare to me...my relationship wif him is gg to 4 months but why is all this matter start to occur....i love him alot,3 months plus, to me is like a long period of time coz it contains so many ups and down,happy,sad,laughter,tears,joy,excruciating heartbreaks & hurt at some point of time...but still it brings alot of significant memories to me...u might think that 3 months plus is a short period but to me it is not...its something to be remember not to be forgotten...for once,i hope mama will understand me... Ya Tuhan,berikanlah petunjukMu untukku....tabahkanlah hatiku menempuhi segala pancaroba dalam mengharungi bahtera ini....amin....
todae is the dae that i hv been waiting for...the result to which ite i go to...i got office skills,at ITE bishan...glad thats near to my house...but,i somehow dislike my choice...i wish i got tourism but sadly i got office...haizzz...disappointed again wif diz matter...but theres nothing i cn do,i dun want to bargain anymore...juz accepting watever that has been given to me...
im feeling bored rite now...dun noe wat to do...i think..umm...i think i wanna do some shopping...but,not in the mood yet to shop...haiz...i dun noe wats gg in my mind now...i felt so moody,fatigued and lifeless....all i noe is that i kept on thinking and thinking and thinking abt my problem im facing ryte now...im soo bored of all this....im tired of living in this enigma called life...nothing makes it easy...when i think again,i see that i dun hv anytime for myself...im bz wif diz and dat...no time to pamper myself...haizz...wats going on wif me...ummph!
gtg now...
my mama wanna talk to me...dun noe abt wat...
do pray for me....hope nothing gonna happen...bbye!
♥ Tuesday, January 26, 2010 @ 8:34 AM
assalamualaikum to everyone...
gd mawnink :)
sooooooriiiieeee people....very bz wif some thingy....& problemz...
haizz...todae,i woke up early...i was awake at 5:30am...coz my sis slept at my house and she woke up to get ready to go to sko0ol...
yesterdae,i work morning shift....lunch time...almost full house seyhh...its monday,yet its crowded...umm...theres only me,khen tang,emi & hafriz..the 4 of us only and we hv to handle that large crowd..tired seyhh...didnt get to rest at all...like alweiz i do floor alone...den i hv to wipe 1 blue tub of cutleries..almost full also...damn tired lerr yesterdae...and todae i hv to work split-shift..haizz....lunch + dinner...ummmph!!
yesterdae also,i got to mit bby again...sorry bby coz im not punctual again...i am sorry that i kept u waiting...like usual,we bought bubble tea..and head towards amk park...we sat there and talk abt the problem that has been screwing me up...our relationship is at risk..due to my sista's problem..its not fair for me,she's the one at fault and why shud i and my boifey must 'kit-kat'....haizzz...bingetNyerrrrrr....i dun want to end my relationship wif my guy...i love him alot....theres so many things that we hv go thru together...and,i cnt bare to let him go...why i shud sacrifice everytime for other people's sake???why???errmm...why adq u do diz to me??wat wrong hv i done towards u that u hv the heart to treat me this way....i really do get it...took bus from amk to hougang interchange...bby wait for my bus to arrive then he went bck home...i took the bus and stop at amk area and took bus no.88...off to pasir ris...alone...this is wat i alweiz do whenever i nid to think and to find some tranquility... from amk - pasir ris...and from pasir ris - amk bck home again...reached home at ard 11+pm...took my bath and off to bed,but sadly cnt get to sleep yet...i tot i cn sleep but i cnt...maybe im having insomnia...due to too much stress...
problem..after problem...everything is making me screwed up...theres so much thing for me to think abt...till now,i didnt get any solution to this problem yet...im running out of time...i shud find the right solution for this matter to solve...why cnt all of u understand me??i love my guy alot and i dun want to end it now...its juz the same like forbidden love...why?...for once,let me be happy wif whom i luv...i luv saiful so much...pls try to understand me,try to put urself in my shoes...wat will u do if u were in my position...this problem is killing me inside out...i dun noe wat im supposed to do now...i cnt get this problem out of my head...
baby,
i am sorry...i guess im not supposed to tell u abt my prob...now that u already knew it,u fall sick...i felt bad abt myself...im the caused to ur sickness....if its not bcoz of me,u wont be in this condition now...i am sorry bby...i blame myself for this....if u still hvnt recover yet,i promise i will bring u to the clinic to hv a check up kae bby...im worried abt ur condition...
kayy....
gtg now...wanna get ready to go to work later on...bye~
assalamualaikum....
♥ Thursday, January 21, 2010 @ 9:16 AM
assalamualaikum to everyone :)
gd mawnink to u...
sorrieee people...didnt update yesterdae coz i was quite bz wif some stuff to settle...like usual,i work mawnink shift yesterdae....whereas fiza work split shift [mawnink + nite shift]....ohya!saw fiza's E.C yesterdae at workplace...pweeewuitttt!!!!!!!kite rase jodoh awk ngn awknyeee E.C akan berpanjangan....amin....kite doakan :) fiza and E.C iz soo shwuitt....they make a wonderful couple.....i hope,one dae they will be real couples...insyaallah,amin yarabbal alamin...last nite,me and fiza went up to our favourite site...im referring to a multi-storey carpark in amk area....we luv gg there to shout & scream...hehehee...and yesterdae,breaking the records,we went there for the first time at nite...like wowww!!!ahhahaha...we had our dinner there...we bought chocolate ice blended wif old chang kee and we had a great talk yesterdae....
we talk abt many things....it includes the topic regarding drink...i dun noe why nowadaez people love to drink,im referring to alcoholic drink....knp seyhh dgn org2 skrg?....i ask fiza yesterdae in the bus and she also same as me dun noe why people drink alcoholic drink...do u people think that drinking cn release stress is it????haizz...mepek seyhhh korg!!!u might think that it cn help to reduce some of ur problem but later on,u will still think abt it again,ryte??....sooo,for wat reason seyhh want to drink that type of drink like liquor,wine,beer or watever it is i dun care the name...theres so many delicious drink that wont make u feel giddy but why theres still people who loves drinking and make themselves giddy....i dun noe why....do u people think by drinking it shows that ur cool is it??hahahaaa...mepek punyeee org!!!i dun respect people who drink alcoholic drink...to me,they dun look cool at all...cool meh if u go around doing something stupid while ur in the unconcious state[giddy]...funnny siaaaa!!!!....umm..and i dun understand why the malays also drink alcoholic drink....sedangkn Islam melarang sape2 yg minum arak....ape nk jd seyhh skrg ngn org Melayu....tk malu ke korg minum2 nie smue???haizz....malu lerr ciket dgn org yg berbangsa and beragama lain yg tgk korg minum tuu....apenyee yg sedap dgn minum air arak tuu...!!mepek btl lerr!!!malas lerr nk layan org2 cm nie smue....nk step cool konon tp tk bertempat...gylerr eyh korg!!!!!air tk halal pun nk minum...ade byk lg air yg halal tp knp lerr korg pilih air arak jgk!!dh melampao seyhh org2 skrg...!haizzz....
im hoping to find someone who wont drink alcoholic drink...if only theres someone who wont drink diz kind of drink,im sure there wont be any accident due to too much drinking...i juz hope to find a guy who drinks normal drink not alcoholic drink...a guy who drinks air zam-zam lg baek...dr korg yg minum air arak...!!!im not saying this for fun...im saying this bcoz im concern abt everything...when i go everywhere,i see many people drink as if its soo 'cool' like that...hahaa....mepek siaaa!!!not cool at all lorrr!!!i respect one of hafizah's fren,his name is Jeson,he's a Nepalese...and he dun drink alcoholic drink...he's young,juz 17 diz year and he's matured enough unlike some people out there....he's somekind like a perfect guy,ryte fiza????i respect alot!!!to me,people who drinks juz wanna show off to their frenz...nothing to be proud abt lorr!!!to me its stupid!!!they who drink alcohol juz wanna run from life reality,i mean they wanna run from problem,they tot they cn run by drinking but then when they didnt drink,their problem will still come bck again and be in their mindset...and thats the reason i say that they are stupid fool...org2 yg tk bleh terime hakikat hidup je yg minum2 nie smue!!!ape nk jd ngn korg nie??malas aku nk layan!!!
♥ Tuesday, January 19, 2010 @ 8:24 PM
assalamualaikum to everyone....
heylewww there! :)
sorie didnt update yesterdae...
alrite,lets get started now...juz now i work for lunch time..slack seyhh..not much things to do..quite bored but still fun & syiok coz got fiza....my bestie fiza...luv her alot lerr!!!
kecian fiza kene lap cabinet td...hope fiza's leg and hands is fine by now...hope ur ok sis:) i will pray for u...btw sis,sorry psl td...i promise,tmr we gonna buy bubble tea & old chang kee and slack bwh blok...okiee sis??hehee...im craving for it seyhh...long john silvers is calling me too..heeee..mcm2 kite nk mkn,entah mane satu jd pilihan hati...heeee :) tp bsk confirm kiteorg gy mamam together-gether kae...heheheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
ohya!juz now bby fetch me from my workplace....thx alot bby :) soo nice of him to fetch me....im lucky to hv him...and yeshh bby,i dh bace every single thing u post on ur blog for me....thank you baby...bby,i am sorry for meeting my ttm dat dae w/o asking for ur permission...but pls dun think bad abt the 2 of us...he's juz my ttm...we met as frenz,me & him didnt do wat im not supposed to do...dun ever accused me of something that i nvr did...u noe wat i mean ryte....i hv u and i dont hv the heart to betray u bby...for a reason...reason that I LOVE YOU bby...im sorry to hurt u by gg out wif another guy....i mean my ttm...umm...guess that u already noe wat it feels like when i see u wif shirley and any of ur ex gf...if ur feeling hurt and pain inside u,that is the feeling that i get when i see u being soo close wif ur girl frenz...its not that i didnt allow u having a girl friend,its juz that i want u to noe the limit....theres alweiz an invisible line in between it....i hope u get wat i mean....im hurt badly whenever u talk to me abt ur ex gf...saying this and that abt her...thats the reason why i said to u juz now that i dislike talking abt ex thingy...coz when u said to me abt ur ex gf,it juz send me a msg that actually u still luv her,hv feelings for her and still remember every single thing she ever did for u...and it hurts me to noe all that..but,all i cn do is juz smile whenever u talk abt her...u want to noe something bby?...i still cnt forget the dae that i saw u being soo close wif ur ex gf,Ruth,the moments when she call u,the moments when u pick up her call,the way u answer it lovingly,the point when u pass her the cigarette she told u to buy,the way u smile at her and the way she smile back at u,at compass point before yayat came...u might think that i hv forgotten every single thing that has happens,but i dont,it still fresh in my mind...and it will alweiz stays there...i recall every single thing bby....the pain i felt inside my heart is excruciating...i am sorry if wat i said makes u mad at me...u cn be angry wif me if u want,i'll accept it...but this is the real thing that i hope u cud understand....u cn alweiz be frens wif anyone u want but i juz hope u noe the limit to everything u do before it gets too late.....i am sorry to say all diz to u bby...i juz want u to understand my feeling,datz all...i didnt ask much from u....umm...i noe,im not like other girls...i noe,im not as manja as wat u wanted me to be...i noe,im not being soo close and be more open to u....from now on,i'll try to change myself...i'll try to be more like wat u wanted....but,if i cnt be like the one u wanted...i am sorry....but i promise i'll be more closer to u like when im wif my bestie sis fiza ...i'll try...ummm,..bby,juz to let u noe,im not that type of 'cheeky-cheeky' type of girls who goes around flirting wif guys...im neither a flirt nor a slut.....and,i dun wish to be one of it...coz i am me...i am roziana...the same girl u noe for the past 4 months ago when we are still frenz...i hv my own stand and principle in life....if i say i love you,i truly mean it...im not saying it juz bcoz i can...
i am sorry bby for saying all this thru my blog...coz i dun hv much courage to tell u all diz right in front of ur face...we hv been together for the past 3 months...and i hope,we will noe each other more well if we cud hv a heart to heart conversation....im sorry bby to bother u when ur bz wif ur skool and work like dat dae...i wont disturb u coz i dun want to pissed u off...its ok if u cnt msg me,i'll try to adapt to it...maybe im too carried away again wif my emotional feelings...pls forgive me bby...i noe i shud be more matured,i noe i shudnt act like a little kid....i realised that my attitude annoy everyone around me...but,thats the real me...thats juz the way i am...im not hiding behind missing pieces....bby,believe me...i'll do anything to make us closer to each other....i'll baby...i love you...
P.S: hv i ever told u bby...that ur alweiz on my mind & u shud noe that im gonna luv u forever...
♥ Monday, January 18, 2010 @ 9:33 AM
heyleww :)
assalamualaikum....
gewd mawnink everyone...!hehe...sorie didnt update yesterdae,quite bz...
yesterdae mawnink at 8:30am i went to religious claz till 12pm...den i head home straight wif sista...sista went out after lunch,whereas i went to take a nap before getting ready for work...i work nite shift last nite wif fiza...
ohya!before i forgot....for the first time my thumbprint was verify...yay!at last!!!hehee...hapie lerr seyh...
kayy2...like alweiz,me and fiza was separated again...im in-charge of section C while fiza & afiq iz in-charge of alfresco...weeewittt!!!fiza partner wif her E.C seyhh...wowwww!!!semoga jodoh berpanjangan dgn E.C iyerrr :)
yesterdae has soo much fun...soo many many many things happen...gerek lerr smlm...!!!
all my work frenz is soo funny..they make our working atmosphere more enjoyable and memorable... :D and thx to fiza's father for sending me homeeee :)
todae...18 jan 2010...
i woke up at 5:55am...coz i receive a msg from my ttm...
after reading the msg,i tried to sleep again but sadly i cnt get any sleep... -__-
kinda sleepie but cnt sleep coz later im heading for work...hehee...
im feeling bored...didnt noe what else shud i do...
umm...im kinda sense something...something thats gonna happen infront of my eyes...
what is it abt??ummm...there must be something wrong somewhere....i tink....ermm...i tink i shud check this out....i want to noe the truth...
todae is the fifth dae i didnt hear any news from bby....dun noe whats happening to him...
is it bcoz of me?is it my fault??umm...idk...or is it u hv found someone else...?haizz...i dun knoe wats gonna happen now...like what i hv told u before,if u choose to end diz relationship now bcoz i hv put a shame on u and embarrass u due to my result...i cnt do anything...i cnt stop u to see someone better..maybe they are more up to ur standard unlike me...i noe where i stand...i noe im not up to ur standard...kite mcm langit dan bumi...ur a polytechnic student whereas im an ite student...way below the average....its not that im accusing u of something u didnt do...but thats my instinct...i sense theres something...i trusted u wif everything i hv but it seems like ur been hiding something from me and i dun noe what is it...i tried to figure out what actually went wrong but i cnt find the real answer to my question...
baby,if u hv found someone better and someone whose gonna luv u more than i do...pls let me noe,dun kip me hanging wif an unanswered question...im not gonna stop u...i juz want to noe the truth...i noe...im not gd enuf for u...im juz a stupid girl...and i noe i dun deserve u...and it hurts me more deeper to noe that u noe u deserve someone better...and,i noe that ur parent is disappointed wif my result....and i noe that they dun want their son to hv a gf like me....i am sorry...
will update soon,gonna go to work now...bbye!!
♥ Saturday, January 16, 2010 @ 10:15 AM
mawnink everyone:) todae i woke up slightly late,at ard 7:35am...
juz now i read bby's blog...he's soo nice...thx bie :)
i love you too...
P.S: bby,u hv a great parents...im sure ur parents do luv u...maybe the way they act makes u think they dont luv u,but they do...do believe me,ur lucky to hv a complete family,unlike mine....whatever it is,they are still ur parents...every parents luv their children..trust me...they luv u bby..and,i love you too baby...
feel soo hapie lerr dun noe why...ehehee... [wink*]
later im attending service skill course again at Shaw Plaza wif fiza,afiq & david...juz like last week..gonna mit fiza at toa payoh interchange later at 12:30pm...den we proceed to Balestier together...the course is from 3-5pm...after that,me,fiza & david went bck to Yio chu kang to work for nite shift whereas afiq is not following us coz he's off todae....wahh fiza,awk mesty hapie kn3,btl tk???hehex...nnt dpt jmp awknyeee E.C tuu...jd couple seyhh org tuu nari...hehehee...pweeewuittt!!!!!klau couple btl2 kn best... :) kite akan doakan awk & E.C awk tuu kayy...heee :)
yesterdae,i worked for lunch time...like usual,im in-charge of section C...haizzz...soo wat seyhh...argggh!!! -_-
while i was clearing the tables after the customers went off...out of a sudden bby called me...i quickly pick up the called...bby call me to ask for bus no gg from amk to bishan...idk where he is up to...he didnt tell me why he's gg to bishan either...umm...its ok,im fine wif it...as long ur safe is impt...
yesterdae after work end,me and fiza went to hv some ice cream,thx sis for the treat :D yummy!!! den we took bus to amk,i wanted to eat Long John Silvers...craving for it lerr...soo,i told fiza to follow me makan...we went to LJS and had our meal there...nice seyhh..feel like HEAVEN...hehee...but,sadly..i kena gastric....ouch!!!very pain seyhh...cnt tahan...sorie fiza to make u worry abt me...she's so caring abt me...syg fiza byk2 tawuuu!!! :)
after we finished our food,we went bck to amk hub to took bus home...umm,my stomach??still pain lerr...haizz...thats alrite,gonna be fine later on...i reached home at ard 6:30pm...my granny serve dinner for me...had dinner wif granny :) luv u granny...!!! then i went out again after having my dinner at 7+...went to mit up wif frenz...hehee...sowiee if yesterdae i turn up late..having gastric lerr,u noe ryte....hahaa..i took train to ______ and reached there at 8+...sorie everyone coz im late :( we talk,talk & talk....laugh and share jokes...fun seyhh...weeee!!!then my fren cabbed me home....coz its late already [ard 11:50pm] at that point of time...my fren cabbed me from ______ to amk and then went home...they soo shweet ....thx alot yeahh :) although they are sleepie & tired,they still wanna send me home coz they scare if theres anything happen to me...im grateful to hv them as my fren...will mit up again so0oon...
♥ Thursday, January 14, 2010 @ 10:15 AM
halo000www~
i woke up at 7am diz mawnink...juz got a few hrs of sleep only...nehh nevermind... -_-
im awake coz mama called me...i mean she call my hp...soo i hv to answer it..she ask me if i already apply which course to take up in ite...and i told mama dat i'hv already apply it..she sounded quite hapie todae,idk why...hmmm...but im hapie to noe that my mama is hapie... :) mama...i miss you <3 !!!
to my dearest sista,although u put me thru all those misery moments...im still ur biological sista and i love u sista...i promise i will teach u Malay so that u will get A1 and will score distinction for oral conversation...
i dun want people to blame me for not coaching my sista in her Malay Language...kakak akan ajar adeq...
umm...im soo bored seyh...nothing to do other than listening to songs..
later gg to work at 4+ pm i guess...im sure its gonna be bored coz sis fiza didnt work todae...i working alone... -_- sedehhhhnyeeeerr...huhu
♥ @ 1:17 AM
gd mawnink everyone!!! wakie wakie people!!!
time check,itz already 1:19 am...i hvnt get to sleep yet...
find soo hard to sleep for this past few daez...haizz...dun noe why lerr... -_-
umm...and yeah,after such a very long time since i last when online at nyte...i went online juz now...woahh,all my frenz ask me if im alryte or not...they tot im sick or something...
sorry people!im quite bz lately...wif personal things and work...hmmm...
juz now i receive a offline message from a friend of mine...dated 8 jan 2010..he send me a message saying that he has forgiven me for all my wrong doings towards him...thx ya...i noe its my fault to make u suffer all this while...i am sorry...
and again,i got a shock when someone that i didnt expect to chat wif me out of a sudden send me an online message saying 'hie' to me...im seriously shock siaaa...its been a long period since me and him last chatted wif one another...he's lucky,he get 20+ points and get to go to his dream polytechnic....congratez yeah!!! ....and,im curious till now,how he knew that i already attached to my baby,Saiful...idk how he knew it seyhh...hmm...he said he's a mentalist...when i ask him if he already has someone,he replied nope since that particular dae...till now... [when i ask him why,he said i dun hv to noe the reason why]...hmm,okae fine...all the best for u,may u succeed in everything u pursue in life..unlike me,everything is gone...i dont get to pursue what i wanted all this while....maybe after i completed my ITE education...haizzz....still its a long path to go thru....
time check,now is 1:35am...
still not feeling sleepie yet...
im still fresh...but im bored coz theres nothing i cn do...soo bored seyhh...haizz....mawnink already,ryte??...soo,its todae sad case siaaa...want to noe why???coz todae im working alone....fiza not working,she off dae ...what to do,i hv to be an independent girl and stand on my own feet...hehee..but,if fiza is there working wif me i'll get to tease her wif her special E.C. ....hehehee...i noe she knew who im referring to...yg awknyeerr tuu sis,wak tawu kn saperr???ehehee...
todae im working nite shift like usual lerr...haizz...but,todae alone... :( sad siaaaaaaa..huhu..
btw,i miss my boifey alot at this very point of time...dun noe if he miss me or not...hehee.. [wink*wink*]
orite...
i tink i wanna try to get some sleep nw...cn i???
okieee then..will update so0ooo0on...gtg now..wanna bobok...
P.S : no matter what reasons,i'll alweiz be loving you..my love for you is beyond words and boundaries.....i love u bby...
♥ Wednesday, January 13, 2010 @ 9:37 PM
love??????
in love,theres this thing that is called an unconditional love...its something special...something that matters the most because it includes going against all odds and excepting ones imperfections...all because of something...called love.....
i want to dedicate this for my baby,Saiful...juz now i met him...we went to ate something at Banquet then we went to this particular place where we used to go before...its been quite a long time since we last went there...we sat there and hv a heart to heart conversation...i told him that i am sorry to disappoint him coz i didnt get myself to polytechnic due to my result...he told me that he still loves me no matter what happens and he told me to not dwell on the past,to look forward and think of the future...thanks baby....i am sorry if i kept talking abt my disappointment juz now...if i do pissed u off,i apologies baby...sorry for every single things i do...
ermm...and,actually...i am scared...scared of losing something..nope,i mean someone...i am afraid of losing u...i guess u shud noe who i am referring to iyerrr??...kayy2,im referring to my Baby...Saiful Ariffin...the love of my life...the one that makes me crazy for him for the past 3 months...the one that i truly love and care abt... Saiful,im very afraid of losing u...coz i noe if i were to lose u one dae,i might be lonely and theres no one to calm me down when im burst in tears....im not saying this for fun,its absolutely true...whenever i heard u said abt girls saying that ur hot and they asking for ur number,i felt like...umm...how do i describe the feeling...ermm...i felt kinda jealous...not bcoz i dont like it...but its bcoz im juz too afraid of someone taking u away from me...it doesnt matter if u want to believe this or not....its up to u bby,i dont hv the permission to force u to believe what i say....but,fyi...all that i say it comes ryte from the bottom of my heart....
P.S : i love you baby...no one else compasses...only you...you will alweiz stay in my heart...
♥ @ 9:41 AM
baby,
thx for everything....now then i truly realised that u luv me....i tot after i told u abt my result u gonna be mad at me...but i was wrong....u were there to calm me down when im burst in tears....u were there behind me when im feeling low....thx for the care u hv given me....i dont noe how to repay ur good deeds towards me....
bby....i am grateful to Allah that gives me the chance to get to noe u...and be luv by u....syg,i love you alot and i will alweiz be loving u....i mean wat i hv juz said here...
bby,i noe that im too emotional at times....i am sorry...i get to carried away by all diz matter...i noe that u get pissed off by my attitude...i am sorry,i'll try to amend it for you...
P.S: i am grateful to hv him in my life...he's there for me when im down...and.all that i cn say is that i truly love him....his unconditional luv makes me believe that im still love by him....
i love you Saiful Ariffin....
kayy....gtg to work now!see u soon kayy ....bbye!!!
♥ @ 9:38 AM
Real Love......
Chorus
Girl)Girl, im going out of my mind(mind)
and even though i dont really know you(you)
and plus im feeling im running out of time
im waiting for the moment i can show you(show you)
and baby girl i want u to know, im watching you go ,im watching you pass me by
its real love that that you dont know about...
Baby i was there all alone.. when you'd be doing things i would watch you
i'd picture you and me all alone .. im wishing you was someone i can talk to
i gotta get you out of my head but baby girl i gotta see you once again(again)
its real love that you dont know about..
Chorus
its real love that that you dont know about...
Every now and now i go to sleep, i couldn't stop dreaming about you
your love is got me feeling kinda weak.. i really cant see me without you
and now u're running around in my head im never gonna let you slip away again(again)
its real love that that you dont know about...
Every now and then when i watch you... i wish that i could tell you that i want you
if i can have the chance to talk with to you.. if i get up the chance to walk with you
then i would stop holding it in ..and never have to go through this again (again)
its real love that you dont know about..
Chorus
its real love that that you dont know about...
Today when i saw you alone... i knew had to come up and approach you
coz girl i really gotta let you know ...all about the things you made me go through
and now she looking at me in the eye and now you get me open and now you dreaming
again(again)
its real love that that you dont know about...
Every now and then when i watch you... i wish that i could tell you that i want you
if i can have the chance to talk to with you.. if i get up the chance to walk with you
then i would stop holding it in and never have to go through this again (again)
its real love that you dont know about..
Chorus
its real love that you dont know about..
You're the one that i wanna know that i can take it from me nononoo
even thought i dont really know you.. i gotta lotta love i wanna show you
and youd be right there infront of me.. i see you passing infront of me nonono
girl i need ur love ...baby i need ur love .....
♥ @ 9:20 AM
13 jan 2010...woke up early at ard 6:45am...
i dun noe watz wrong wif me diz few daez....find so hard to close my eyes....haizzz...
yesterdae,is my off dae....soo,i took the chance to apply for my Nitec course....
i seek fiza's help in applying for ITE...thx sis for all ur help... :)
bby called me yesterdae...i noe i made him worried abt me....i am sorry...not my intention to do that...i juz felt that im useless and i felt disappointed after failing my O lvls...i didnt get to pursue my dreamz in my dream polytechnics...
bby....im sorry abt yesterdae....im too carried away by emotions....pls forgive me bby....thx bby for wanting to be there wherever i need u....and thx for the unconditional luv that u gave me all this while...i do appreciate it...i love you syg....
umm...maybe its juz not my luck to go to polytechnic...maybe i hv a longer pave to go thru before i cn get myself to my dream destination....whatever it is....i promise to myself that i'll do my very best in ITE...so that i'll get to proceed to poly after my ite education ended....i promise...
♥ Tuesday, January 12, 2010 @ 10:06 AM
P.S: to bby....
bby,i am sorry to disappoint u wif the points that i get for O lvls...i'hv tried my best but this is what i get...umm...if u want to noe,i cnt forgive myself for being this way...im disappointed wif myself coz i didnt do well...
2009 is a year where theres so many things happen to me....happy ones and sad ones...
in march...my cat was diagnosed wif urinary infection and is seriously ill that it leads to him being hospitalised after having an operation to save his life...and now he's doing fine....i luv my cat....then,in june...2 june...juz after i sat for my Malay O lvl examination...my grandfather was practically ill and hv to be sent to hospital...he was diagnosed wif pneumonia...a symptom which infect the lungs....he's been hospitalised for 3 months in TTSH....from the 1st dae my atok[grandfather] was admitted to hospital,not a dae that i nvr came to visit him....i visit him every single dae after sko0l ends...he took care of me since i was a little girl and now its my turn to take care of him...hospital is like my 2nd home....i went bck late at nite wif granny and i didnt get enuf sleep,didnt get much time to revise my work and had to do the household chores....and 1 day,i collapsed...my head was pretty much heavy and i was having a high fever wif flu....everyday went to consult a doctor but everyday seems to bring me nearer to death....my death bed....im not trying to scare u...its the truth,its the real thing that cnt be deny....i was sent to TTSH due to high fever...and had to be hospitalised for 4 daez....i pity my granny....she had to run here and there....she had to take care of her husband and take care of me too....my granny is a strong will woman...i respect her for that...she took care of me when im hospitalised...terime kaseh nenek...after 4 daez in the hospital,i went bck home...my atok still in the hospital coz his condition is in a critical stage...and i cnt go bck to sko0l for 2 weeks after being hospitalised coz im still not fully recover....had to stay at home but i kept thinking of my atok...didnt want anything bad to happen to him...everything happens to me in a straight row...idk why it happens when im gg to take my major examination...which is O lvl...haizz...maybe Allah is testing my perseverance level...i'hv to accept it....
bby...im sorry for everything...
from the 1st time we met each other,on 4 October 09...i remember u onces said to me that if cn u didnt want to see me in ite....but,sadly...i disappoint u...not only u...my granny,mama and everyone who supported me from the back...im sorry bby....i noe that im way below ur standard...ur a Polytechnic student whereas im gg to be an ite student...we are juz like langit dgn bumi....ur brilliant boi whereas im juz a stupid girl...cnt even do well in my exam...im very stupid!!!....i admit....
bby....again i want to apologise if i bring shame to u....
im ashame of myself to faced u...
bby...if u hv make a decision to leave me coz i bring shame to u...i'll accept it...coz i noe that i dun deserve u coz ur way too gd for me....and u dun deserve a stupid girl like me...bby,i love you so much....but i dun want to bring shame to u....i dun want to shame u infront of ur frenz or family...ur well-educated whereas im not...i wanna be in the same polytechnic as u do but,everything has gone....i dont want to lose u....i'hv a number of guy frenz but they are juz a friend to me,nothing more than that.... the one that i love is u...only u...no one else...but if u think,being wif me gonna bring shame to u...and leaving me is the best way to deal wif diz matter than i will accept it although i know and im very sure that i will cry each single dae for the fact that im losing u....but,what ever it is,i really hv fall in love with you....if u want to noe,after i got my result,im speechless....idk how shud i tell u abt my result....i noe u gonna be disappointed wif me...u dun noe how i felt...i rase hampa sgt dgn diri i....i cried on the phone when talking to u yesterdae coz i cnt hold bck my tears that keeps running down my cheek...i tried to control myself but i cnt....tears keep running down and my eyes was swollen...
bby....u noe that i really love you...
but,if u want to leave me for another girl who is well-educated and hv the same standard as u do...im willing to let u go bby....coz in love,it need sacrifices....if loving u means i hv to sacrifice...im willing,coz i love you alot....i want the best for u...and if the best means u leaving me and go for another girl,theres nothing that i cn do...i cnt stop u from doing it...who am i to stop u...i akan ikhlaskn u pergi utk bersama dgn org lain jika itu keputasan yg u inginkn...kerana i terlalu sayangkn u....
im not telling u this for the sake of telling...im telling u this seriously bby....u hv ur choice,i wont stop u from everything bby.....
baby,i love you....
♥ @ 9:46 AM
10 jan 10
i woke up at 7:25am todae...
and,i look ard me as though everything iz different...erm,maybe....maybe the path of my live has change from yesterdae onwards...
umm...im feeling very -_- ....no mood since yesterdae....felt hungry but then i hv no appetite to eat....
yesterdae....11 Jan 2010...O lvl result was release...
im hoping to go to polytechnic and pursue my dreamz there...but....everything has gone....gone in juz a blink of an eye...i'hv done my best but diz iz wat i get in return....im soo disappointed wif myself....i didnt get myself to Polytechnic....to everyone that has been supporting me from behind,all i wanna say is thankz alot and i wanna apologise coz i'hv disappoint all of u who hv faith in me...i am sorry....
maybe...diz is the path where Allah swt has written for me....and i must be willing to accept this....terime kaseh Ya Tuhan....aku redha dgn ketentuanMu ini....kerana aku percaya disebalik setiap kejadian pasti ada hikmah & pengajaran....[i accept this willingly....bcoz i noe everything that happened has its own reason to it]....i'll study even harder than before and prove to myself that i cn do better than diz....i promise to myself....
the course that im eligible in ite mostly is: engineering,business related,beauty therapy,design & media and health sciences....all together i hv 33 choices that includes campus + courses...
i still hvnt make my choice yet....im still considering which one is a better choice for me...
♥ Sunday, January 10, 2010 @ 11:35 AM
tmr....11/01/10,monday....
O lvl result will be release....haizz....im scare and nervous seyhh.... huhuhu...
to all candidates who took O lvls,all the very best to everyone and may u go to ur dream sko0l...!!!
all i cn say now is.....i am nervous....damn nervous.....
umm...4 daez ago..i saw someone in the bus while i was otw to my workplace wif fiza...i told fiza that i seems to noe that person...
that face really remind me of someone....someone i used to noe...the facial feature iz so familiar...
i tried to think deeply...and now,i noe who that person iz...
i apologise is i hv hurt u deeply before...im sorry for causing u soo much pain...
i noe im in the wrong,hope u cud forgive me for all my sins towards u...
i was so shocked to see him in the bus...bus no.45.....
he alight at the bus stop opposite Nanyang Polytechnic...and he went straight up the bridge to NYP...
and,guess what...?
omg!!! he study at NYP....idk what course he's in...coz its been a very,very long time since i last chat wif him...
i tot i was wrong at first but suddenly when i check his blog,everything is ryte....
haizz.....everything that he update in his blog is correct...and that means,im not mistaken for the wrong identity...he is the one that i used to noe....i used to share problem whenever im down,he's alweiz there...but after what i hv done to him...i hope,he cud forgive me.....i am sorry....i hope,u cud find someone better...someone that will treat u gd....and wont hurt u like i do....im sorry u...and what u said iz absolutely ryte...u must moved on...find a better someone....
♥ @ 10:36 AM
hapie 3rd anniversary bby!!! <3
P.S: There is no greater happiness than having u...and no greater bliss than sharing this life wif u...if i had 1 breathe to spare...if i had juz 1 moment to live...i wud be spending it wif u....
thx bby for being there for me in times of needs....thx for the luv and care u hv given me thru out the past 3 months we hv been together....i apologise if theres any mistakes that i hv done towards u....i admit,im abit emotional at times and sometimes not in the mood...im sorry...i'll amend every single mistakes....i'll try to give u the best and be there whenever u nid me in times of ups and downs...
bby....
sejak pertama kali kita bersahabat and sejak pertama kali kita bersua muka...
i masih terbayang-bayangkan saat bahagia itu...
sudah banyak perkara yang kita sudah tempuhi rintangan berjuta selama ini dan kita sudah sampai disaat ini....
saat yang i harapkan kita akan bersama untuk selamanya...
sayang,.....ku sayang kamu...ku merinduimu selalu hingga ke penghujung nafasku...
semoga cinta kita dapat bersama hingga ke akhir masa....
Yg Benar;
rOzIaNa
♥ @ 10:24 AM
weeeeeeeee!!!!!
todae,i woke up at 7:15am...!haha!!
like usual,i'll check my phone if theres any msg or anything...
receive 1 missed call & 4 msg....sowie for nt picking up the phone,yesterdae vr sleepie seyhh damn tired.....sorry ya....and yes,yesterdae....IM NOT IN A GOOD MOOD at all....idk why....soorie everyone if i dun talk much or didnt smileeee....sorry again...
btw,yesterdae after work we celebrate Alif bdae...he was shock..no one told him abt the celebration....anywae,Hapie Bdae Alif may u succeed in life and everything u do...insyaallah,amin... :)
o0h yah!!!not forgetting.....!bby fetch me from workplace yesterdae....aww!!!soo shweet!thc bby for coming all the way to fetch me...soo grateful to u bby :) :) heheex...we took 76 bck home,before that we went to the nearest Mcdonalds to hv a supper....bby bought cheese burger & ice milo...den i follow bby to the bus stop and wait for the bus to arrive...hahaha...after bby took the bus,i make my way bck homieee....home shweet home...!!!
♥ Friday, January 8, 2010 @ 1:25 PM
lately..
i'hv been craving for ice cream....its not chocolate flavour...its not strawberry either...
its durian flavour....im craving for it...till now,still hvnt eat it yet....haizz....when will i get to eat it...im bz wif work and personal thingy,i dun hv time to search for my crave...hmmp!!!
but thats alrite....im not gonna cry like a little girl...im a strong girl...hehee :P
fiza...o0h fiza....nnt teman kite mkn ice cream iyeer??heee.....kite nk sgt mkn ice cream durian flavour seyhh....dr ari tuu blom dpt mkn ice cream smpi skrg....haizzz....
want to noe sumting????at 1:37pm...my boifey msg me telling me his eating ice cream....ummph...soo sad seyhh i didnt get to eat wat im craving for....nehhh...datz fine...hehee...
o0upz!!! wait...!wait...!wait...!!!!
btw....not forgetting my frenz who celebrate their bdae todae & tmr....hapie bdae to amirul haqim & raiqal runardy....may u 2 hv a wonderful year ahead,may God bless u and succeed in life....
orite,gtg now...!
hehee...got to get ready for work...!!!here i come....weee!
till next time....bbye!!!!
♥ @ 12:43 PM
papa..
diz is a picture of my late papa wif me....diz picx iz taken when im 1 yrs old...
i miz my papa alot....yesterdae,i had a dream....a dream that i hope it is true....i dream of my papa visiting me while i was lying on my bed in a weak condition....maybe bcoz im sick thats the reason my papa came to pay me a visit to see if im alrite....terima kasih papa...
papa....
nana rindu papa....knp harus papa pergi tinggalkn nana pada saat nana memerlukan papa berada disamping nana?....nana sayang papa....rindu kpd papa....
papa...
bawalah nana pulang bersama papa dialam sana....seandainya papa tahu,nana amat merindui papa....kehadiran papa amat nana harapkan.....nana rindukan belaian kasih sayang papa....sudah hampir 5 tahun papa pergi buat selama-lamanya...nana rindu sangat kepada papa....
Ya Tuhan,sampaikan kata-kata rinduku kepada papaku yang amat kucintai selama ini....
ampunkan dosa-dosanya & tempatkanlah papa dalam golongan orang-orang yang beriman & semoga dicucuri rahmat keatas roh papaku....amin....
seeing everyone having both parents...i felt sad...sad coz i dun hv my papa...i miz my papa alot....he left for a reason coz he's ill....ajal maut ditangan Tuhan...everything happens with God's will...nothing cn ever change that....i juz want to remind everyone that still hv both parents to appreciate them and dont ever go against them...w/o them we wudnt see diz enigma called world....everyone makes mistakes,but we shud remind ourself to amend it before its way too late....soo,be grateful towards ur parents and luv them wif everything u hv coz nothing iz more precious than to gave the one u luv the purest luv......remember that.....
♥ @ 12:05 PM
8/1/10
todae...i woke up at ard 7:27am..
my head seems soo heavy..and i felt soo fatigue..i cudnt pull myself out of my bed..im running a high fever its says 37.9 degrees celcius....haizz...all bcoz i do wat i shudnt hv done..yesterdae,before work...i ate mentos wif coke....i tot it was fun to repeat it again & again but now im suffering from it....having fever...stupid me...!i wont want to do it again...i think soo...hahaa...
yesterdae work was alrite...i enjoy working there....like usual,i alweiz hv a problem when im punching in my card coz my fingerprint iz not verify....after soo many times of trying then my fingerprint iz verify...at last!hehee...yayy!!!weeee!yesterdae i end work at ard 10:45pm and fiza's father cabbed me home...thx yeahh!! :)
i reached home,my granny was preparing dinner for me...cn be consider supper i guess...haahaha...after i took my bathe,i went to the kitchen to hv my dinner wif granny...after that,i went to bed coz my eyes cnt take it anymore...soo sleepie already lerr and in my head seems to hv needle poking....ouch!cnt tahan anymore...still very fatigue...
juz now...my manager,Hafriz msg me...telling me to report to Cairnhill outlet wif fiza before 5:45pm todae...haizz...plus todae...its already the 2nd time me and fiza went to Carnhill outlet...i hv to admit,it was great!fun!!!get to work in a different environment...yayy!!ehheee...soo,later im gg to mit fiza at Bishan mrt station at 4pm,from there we will take mrt to somerset....here we come....!!! like usual,i work nite shift todae...and yeah,nite scenery iz wonderful and soo tranquil...awww!miz diz moments soo muchiee....
tomorrow.....
working nite shift again....BUT....tmr there's a slight different...coz tmr me,fiza,afiq,alif & david is gg to attend a course....basic working course at Balestier...gonna mit them at Toa payoh Interchange tmr and go together wif them from there...all the very best to all yea!hehee....
i hv to admit here...im stubborn when it comes to consuming medications....i hate eating pills....hate it alot!...i wont eat medicine coz i dun want to depend on medication to stay fine...what i do when i fell sick iz i'll rest and hv more sleep...that will make me feel better...btw,i wanna dedicate diz to fiza : sis,thx yeah for ur care and concern towards me...u too must take care tawu..eat ur medicine and may u recover soon...insyaallah,amin...meet u soon sis later :) heheee....pape msg kite kayy2...
♥ Thursday, January 7, 2010 @ 10:05 AM
See this charming guy???...he's my boifey! Saiful Ariffin...he's the light of my life...Today....i woke up at 7am... i receive a msg from my bby[he's soo shweet lerr]..wanna noe wat he send to me in the msg???...hehehee...here it is :" bby!i tahu bby nga tido rite tkper..i juz wana say thank 4 spending time wif me today..ily!n imy!!gdnyte my luv.."....aww...!shweetnyeee bby...tankieww kayyy!!!while typing this...i kept smiling away...hehee..i cnt forget yesterdae...bby slept in the bus...and he looked soo cute...teeheeee! i get to sleep juz for a short while on his shoulder....i juz hope i got to sleep onto that shoulder again & forever....
b.....bb...bby!!!i rindu bby lerr....plz jage diri baek2 kayy cyg....dun notie2 pt sko0l kayy...heheee...hv a great dae bby!!! :) 3 more daez to go.....!insyaallah....10.01.10.....i luv the date but i luv more is the person that makes me fall in luv wif him on 10.10.09....teeeheeee! i luv u & will alweiz be loving u....
♥ @ 9:04 AM
late..
sooorieeee!!!
i noe,im late to update my blog...bz as usual...
11 Jan 10.....O lvls result will be release....umm...im soo nervous idk wats gg on my head ryte now -_- ...but,all im thinking now is abt my result...i'hv done my best and i hope my result wont disappoint me....haizzz.....i wanna go polytechnic and persue my dream....
yesterdae...im sooooooooooooo hapie COZ i get to meet my bby!!!itz been a long period since i last met him...if im not mistaken the last one we met is when we are gg for 2010 countdown,ryte bby???...hehee...i miz him soo sooo sooo muchiee!!i met him at amk hub and he's wif his fren...after his fren went bck home,we make our way to mrt station where we then took a train there to city hall....the train was crowded like usual...hahaa...den we head down to Peninsula and we walk2 at there...we drank bubble tea...as usual bby drank vanilla ice blended whereas i drank chocolate ice blended...from Peninsula,we walk to Bugis...on our way there,we met wif Asyura [bby's madrasah clazmatez]...she's frenly & a shweet gerl...aww!!she's beautiful...!nice meeting u Asyura :)!!!hehee...
ouhyah!we went to Iluma to look for ur 2nd couple ring...hahaa..we then go straight to Bugis Junction and look for some thingy there...bby bought a long sleeve shirt [niceeee seyhh...hehee...] we then looked ard for clothes...coz i tot of wearing the same color whenever the 2 of us goes out together...datz gonna be shweeet lerr!aww!!!eheheee...but sadly,we look high and low of it but we cnt find it at all...haizz...mungkin dh naseb kott...ahaha..nahh dats fine...
btw....i wanna apologise to bby coz i made him to late for work yesterdae...i dun noe that he's working last nite and im soo soorrie...its not my intention bby to make u late for work...i felt so bad abt myself ....haizz...i'll amend my mistakes....we took bus no. 51 from Bugis to Hougang Interchange and from there we go our separate ways ...bby walk home whereas i took bus and went bck home...when i reached home,i took bathe then i had dinner wif granny...i luv u nenek...after that,i watched tv wif granny and while watching tv i receive a phone call...its from my friend...wat a surprise!its from Rachel...she's my primary sko0l fren...i miz her soo badly!she juz return from Philippines,she's a philippinos mix wif spanish....awww!im soo touched coz she still remember me....she's my bestest fren in primary sko0l...we share our problem together and thats the reason why i miz her badly coz its been a long period since i last met her 3 years back...im gonna mit u so0n Rachel :) ....
♥ Wednesday, January 6, 2010 @ 2:29 PM
look at this picx...! this is where i work & they are all my frenz!!! :) awww!!! i luv diz group photo soo muchiieee lerr!!!
♥ Monday, January 4, 2010 @ 11:20 AM
bored
todae felt soo bored staying at home doing nothing other than surfing the net coz todae off dae...granny & mama is gg to polyclinic for checkup todae...hope granny is fine :) ..fiza msg me juz now,asking me to go out wif her & dipsy dibas to orchard todae....i want to follow them seyhh...soo bored duduk uma...nk ikot!kite nk ikot!!hehe...but i cn only go out after my granny reached home...haizz...lmbtnyeeer...tmr also off dae for me coz last week i work the whole week...but,i want to go to work...!best seyhh keje...boring duduk uma lerr asyik kene nagging jeeerr...hahaa...talking abt work..i find that my work iz quite okae now,im having soo much fun working there... :) best gyler seyhh....the attachment was fun too!get to work in another outlet and get to feel the new atmosphere there and new frenz to0...i luv my job!!!fuhhh...its the best eva lerr!!!
kayy2,till then...gtg now...bbye!
♥ @ 10:35 AM
trust
trust.....
in every relationship there must be trust towards one another...and thats absolutely true...but,when someone trust u wif everything they hv dont ever let down their trust towards u...dont betray them...its not easy to built up trust,but in juz seconds it cn be destroy...
to bby...only to u...
i trusted u wif all my hearts and i juz hope u wont betray me...pls dont doubt my luv for u coz its only meant for u,Saiful...believe me...i really love u and i cnt describe the feeling when i realised something that dae...something that shatters my heart into pieces when i found something...a proof to an unanswered questioned that i'hv been looking for...i felt so down when i read it...i dun believe it but then my instinct seems to say that its true...haizz...i dun noe wats going on now...i luv u Saiful no matter what happens even if i hv to let u go wif someone else as long as ur hapie i'll be hapie too....if u wanna noe,bby,im serious wif u...i really luvs u and i cnt live w/o u...i need u in my life...if loving u mean i hv to sacrifice then i'll be willing to sacrifice for ur sake...i'll do anything for u...ily...
bby,...i sayang u sejak dulu kite berkenalan hingga ke saat ini...i msh menyayangi u...walau ape pun yg berlaku i akan tetap sayang bby...example,if ur in a mess & ur hair not in place i'll still tell u that u look charming to me...if u put on weight,i'll still love u...if ur sick,i promise to be there to take care of u and hope u will recover soon and i hope i cn feel the pain ur feeling coz i cnt bare to see u suffer all alone,let's share the sufferings together...if ur blind,i'll not leave u for others coz im not in luv wif ur eyes but im in luv wif u,it doesnt matter if u cnt see me,but i'll be ur eyes so u cn see the same way as mine...if u turn bald one dae,i'll still loves u coz no matter what hairtsyle u hv i'll still luv it...my luv for u is beyond boundaries bby & thats true...im not stating diz for fun,its the truth....
♥ @ 10:20 AM
yck outlet
diz is my work place @ sakura....
♥ @ 9:48 AM
work attachment
heyleww!!! im back!!!
been quite bz lately wif some thingy and work...some things that happened to me seems to be screwed up sometimes...haizz...
yesterdae,i work nite shift...best seyhh..me & fiza reach our work place at ard 5pm then we change up and we had a briefing from our outlet manager...out of a sudden,hafriz,our manager ask all of us to choose among us to be send to Orchard cairnhill outlet near The Heeren for work attachment there...non of us raise our hands...then they choose Rafi to be sent there,but then our another manager Emi told me & fiza that theres a change in plan and we [fiza & me] were the one to be send there for attachment...haizz...we then hv to take our bags and all our thingy and get ready to head to Orchard...we took mrt and stop at Somerset mrt station and walk to The Heeren building and we found the place we are looking for Sakura@orchard outlet...yay!!! found it!!!
we change up and get started wif our work...me & fiza make new frenz there like Hifzan,Wan,Irsyad and many more...they are frenly and helpful too...aniwae thx yeahh!
after all the customer has left the restaurant,we do the usual routine like cleaning up the area and polishing the knives,fork and spoon and place it on each table... and lastly, before we went home,we all sit and makan....sdp seyhh...fuhh!the sushi is like woww!!!soo mouth watery lerr...hehee...after mkn,we say gdbye to our frenz and we went back home....home sweet home...and not forgetting,thx to fiza's father for sending me home...thx soo muchiee!!! :)
♥ Saturday, January 2, 2010 @ 11:31 AM
instinct
lately,i'hv got this feeling..its from my instinct..
i dun noe how to start it...
everyone may think its easy for me but its not easy for a girl like me..
this instinct of mine been running thru my mind and i cn sense it...i believe in my instinct..i noe its true...
i think of this every single seconds..i cnt get it out of my mind..even thought im smiling,its nt real...sometimes i hv to do that to hide wat im gg thru...
haizz...its an unanswered questions...its hard...trust me...
kayy2,..i guess its better i start now..ermm...i...i actually sense something...i felt soo bad abt myself now..i think,i shud let that person go wif that someone he loves...i sense that he still loves his special someone that bring significant meanings in his life....i knew it all along...but i juz kept quiet and kip to myself...but now,i truly realised....my instinct iz ryte...and i believe it...theres alot of proof that brings me to that unanswered questions...thx ya...i dun want to steal someone from their special someone...im not a snatcher...im not born to be that either...i think,its better if i let that person i truly loves go wif his special someone that he devotes his love for...i dun want to seperate them...i noe he loves her all his life...i noe his loves for her is beyond all boundaries...i respect it...
now...
its better i let him go although i noe i cnt go thru life w/o him by my sides...but i'll try to adapt to it...i'll hv to learned the hard way as long as i'll get to see him smiling again when he's wif his special someone...all i want is to see him happy...even thought im hurt inside...i admit,i loves him alot...i loves him,only him,no one else...but,i hv to be a strong girl to faced all this matter....im hapie if his hapie...his happiness is mine too...i dun care about my feelings being hurt by the truth but i'll be smiling if i see him together again wif her.....coz he loves her....i realised that...when he's wif me,he alweiz talk abt her,everything regarding her and i cn see his sincere smile while saying her name...and,all i cn do is juz to hold on my tears and dont let it fall in front of him...i cried alone at nite,no one knows...only Allah knows...i love u alot and i hv told u that i really loves u and i cnt bare to let u go but i guess i shud coz i noe ur loves iz only devoted for her and not me...not me...i knew it now...thx so much for evrything...i'll alweiz loves u even if ur wif her later on...no matter wat i'll love u...ur wif me now but i noe ur happiness is only wif her,but not me...i accept that...i think...i think i hv to made a decision...a decision that cn solve all this matter...i'll let u go as long as ur hapie wif her...i am sorry for speaking the truth,this iz the thoughts that keep running thru my mind...thankx for everything that u'hv done for me...
♥ @ 11:14 AM
sorie late updatez to all...been bz wif work lately..
btw,hapie new year everyone! im hapie coz i get to go for countdown 2010 that dae..thx to bby for fetching me after work at Yio chu kang mrt station...i felt really bad to cause him lost his way to my work place...sorry bby...
yesterdae..itz a new year..2010..
my work place was pack wif customers..full house lerr...me,Rafi & princess was in-charge of alfresco...sadly,it was a rainy dae and i hv to walk thru the rain to every table to clear their plates and utensils...my friend,Shahidat..told me to say the prayers to ask for rain so that there wudnt be many customer...i told him i forgot the prayers...hahaha..but still,theres many reservation made to dine in to the restaurant where i work...thats great!fiza was in-charge of section A and B..the 2 of us were seperated again...haiz..but still we got the chance to talk for awhile...yesterdae,after all the clearing up and closing ...i end work at ard 10:45...fiza's family cabbed me home...thz alot yeahh!i appreciate it al0ot..
