With every step,

With every step,

the more my heart moves to your beat. Y

the more my heart moves to your beat. Y

♥ Saturday, January 2, 2010 @ 11:31 AM
instinct

lately,i'hv got this feeling..its from my instinct..
i dun noe how to start it...
everyone may think its easy for me but its not easy for a girl like me..
this instinct of mine been running thru my mind and i cn sense it...i believe in my instinct..i noe its true...
i think of this every single seconds..i cnt get it out of my mind..even thought im smiling,its nt real...sometimes i hv to do that to hide wat im gg thru...
haizz...its an unanswered questions...its hard...trust me...

kayy2,..i guess its better i start now..ermm...i...i actually sense something...i felt soo bad abt myself now..i think,i shud let that person go wif that someone he loves...i sense that he still loves his special someone that bring significant meanings in his life....i knew it all along...but i juz kept quiet and kip to myself...but now,i truly realised....my instinct iz ryte...and i believe it...theres alot of proof that brings me to that unanswered questions...thx ya...i dun want to steal someone from their special someone...im not a snatcher...im not born to be that either...i think,its better if i let that person i truly loves go wif his special someone that he devotes his love for...i dun want to seperate them...i noe he loves her all his life...i noe his loves for her is beyond all boundaries...i respect it...

now...
its better i let him go although i noe i cnt go thru life w/o him by my sides...but i'll try to adapt to it...i'll hv to learned the hard way as long as i'll get to see him smiling again when he's wif his special someone...all i want is to see him happy...even thought im hurt inside...i admit,i loves him alot...i loves him,only him,no one else...but,i hv to be a strong girl to faced all this matter....im hapie if his hapie...his happiness is mine too...i dun care about my feelings being hurt by the truth but i'll be smiling if i see him together again wif her.....coz he loves her....i realised that...when he's wif me,he alweiz talk abt her,everything regarding her and i cn see his sincere smile while saying her name...and,all i cn do is juz to hold on my tears and dont let it fall in front of him...i cried alone at nite,no one knows...only Allah knows...i love u alot and i hv told u that i really loves u and i cnt bare to let u go but i guess i shud coz i noe ur loves iz only devoted for her and not me...not me...i knew it now...thx so much for evrything...i'll alweiz loves u even if ur wif her later on...no matter wat i'll love u...ur wif me now but i noe ur happiness is only wif her,but not me...i accept that...i think...i think i hv to made a decision...a decision that cn solve all this matter...i'll let u go as long as ur hapie wif her...i am sorry for speaking the truth,this iz the thoughts that keep running thru my mind...thankx for everything that u'hv done for me...