With every step,

With every step,

the more my heart moves to your beat. Y

the more my heart moves to your beat. Y

♥ Wednesday, February 3, 2010 @ 8:10 PM

assalamualaikum....
here i am again,in my room....alone...
granny is in the hall making pineapples tarts,whereas grandfather is asleep already....
time check,its 8:16pm now...
im listening to a song entittled 'hati yang kau sakiti ' from Rossa...this song really brings significant meanings for me in this point of time..try to listen to this song and understand the lyrics clearly..this songs juz describe the feeling i had inside me now..if u listen to this song,u'll understand what im feeling rite now..and not forgetting,my blog background song entittled 'separuh jiwaku pergi bersamamu' from Anang...its a nice song...i really love this 2 song...do listen to it whenever ur free,kayy?
i hv no idea what i should do...yes,im bored...yes im sick,i noe i should rest...but,not now ok...i'hv many things in mind...i'hv to think abt this and that...argghhh!
thx fiza for the concern u gave me,u too must take gd care of ur health too kae...must'nt sleep to late tawuu...see u soon at work...

juz now baby msg me diz :

msg: bby i tk jadi tido..haiz bby i nk bbl psl us bleh?
i replied: bleh..

msg: bby syg i luv u so much n u knw tat rite..i rasa so far away this 4 days witout u..i rasa the loneliness tat i will felt if u r gone..i cant bear to see me spending my life witout u..i takot bby satu hari akan tinggalkn i..bby pls bilang pada i bby takkn tinggalkn i plz?
i replied: knp bby kate cm nie?....

msg: bby i rasa takut yg bby satu hari nk tinggalkn i..tat juz wad i been feeling tis 4 days..tats all..takper la bby i juz glad bby dah sihat..
i replied: i tkkn tinggalkn bby tanpa alasan yg kukuh..i am sorie fr wat i wrote on my blog..

while typing this,out of a sudden my phone vibrate...its a call from baby...i picked it up and talk to him..he told me why i wrote that on my blog..he say he's sorry for hurting me badly..i told him,"its ok bie"..

bby,guess that u hv already read everything that i wrote on my blog...rite?
i am sorry to hv to say all that to u..i didnt hv much courage to tell u straight to ur face..im afraid i might hurt u even deeper that way..my friend ask me wats wrong wif us..i juz say nothing..im thankful to hv a friend who is there for me and give me words of encouragement for me to go thru this..they told me that i hv given u so much chances but again u do me like this..yes,i admit..i'hv given u chances after chances but all i receive is nothing juz pain and hurt from u..baby,i hv forgiven u long time ago..i'll alweiz forgive u..but its up to u to decide,i leave it to u to make the conclusion..baby,im not mad at u for ur info..for onces,i juz want u to understand my feelings..thats all..i dont ask much from u..7 more daes before our 4 months anniversary,i hope everything gonna be alright by then..4 months to me is a long period of time..i pray and hope we cn be a better person for one another..i noe u love me..i do love u too baby..but baby,in love theres a cost for us to pay..it means,when we are in love,we hv to sacrifice something for the better but,not for the worst..love really needs much understanding between 2 souls..if we cnt commit with this,we cnt commit wit other things too..i tried to understand u but i nvr see u trying to understand me..but thats fine..i'll give u another chance..juz now u told me that u cnt be responsible with ur words,rite?...baby,juz to let u noe something that words cn cut as sharply as any blade,and that those cuts leave scars upon the souls..im sorry for being like this..its not my intention to be like this..i trust u to not do it again and i hv given u a chance to amend ur mistakes..but,if it happens again..umm..i dun noe wat i shud do..maybe,i shud blame myself for this for giving too much chance and still get hurt again..baby,i love you..i noe u knew it..here,i gave u my heart and i trust u not to break it again...but,if u do and my heart is broken by u..theres nothing i cn do other than to close my heart for everything..coz im so paranoid of being hurt and get my heart broken by the one i truthfully love..

P.S: i dun ask much from u..i juz want u to understand my feelings..thats all..