With every step,

With every step,

the more my heart moves to your beat. Y

the more my heart moves to your beat. Y

♥ Friday, February 12, 2010 @ 9:48 PM

Assalamualaikum...

Dear readers,
i felt very sad at this point of time...everyone around me is making me cry...and yes,i am crying rite now...my granny scold me and ask me to quit my work,i fought wif my bf,my sista didnt return home,mother is crying for wat sista did to her and many more...why am i being put thru all this misery...i am sick of all this...problem after problem...i dun noe wat will happen next...nobody cn help me...im stuck in between all this...theres so much for me to think and its making me mad...
u may think that im smiling but actually im crying inside...no one knows...im afraid to meet anyone now coz my eyes see swollen...i hope when i cry alot,i'll turn blind and by then i dun hv to see the faces that has cause me all my tears to shed...it hurts alot more when the one whose making u cry is the one that u truly love...why do love hurts the most...heartbreaks is the worst thing i ever felt coz onces ur heart is broken theres nothing we cn do to fix it bck again...if u really want to noe,my heart still loves u...but,u hv hurt me dear...its not easy for me to gain bck my trust for u...i am sorry to say all the harsh things to u juz now...i felt bad for saying that to u...but,my heart is at the verge of breaking after that nite incident...i juz cnt forget how u treat me that way...i noe,u hv a nice heart,u care for others,thats good...its ok u...thank you for all u hv given me...
Here i am,in my room...alone...granny didnt want to look at me at all...she's mad at me abt something....all i cn do is talk to myself...im looking at the picx we took together since the first time we meet on the 4 oct 2009,how happy we are at that time...but then,as the time pass by...we are drifted away...we fight and argue more often than before and we dun hv enuf time for each other...time flies so fast,i miss the time we share the happiness together but now,theres no happiness only tears thats rolling down my cheek...tears cnt stop rolling down from my eyes,it keeps rolling and i cnt stop it whenever i think of us....i admit,i still loves you...but,sadly u hv failed me...u treat me badly...u hurt me and it cause excruciating pain upon my heart...and i am afraid that history will repeat itself...

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