With every step,

With every step,

the more my heart moves to your beat. Y

the more my heart moves to your beat. Y

♥ Tuesday, March 16, 2010 @ 11:11 AM

assalamualaikum warahmatullah hiwabarakatuh
good morning my luvly readers....
heyleww..!!im bck again....
dun worie,todae i off not working soo,here im infront of my comp screen blogging abt my lifestory...
soo bored staying at home nothing else to do other than watch tv and ZzZzZzzz...ha ha...i mean,sleeping lurr...Duhh!

i dun noe why is it everything seems to be soo screwing up lately....i gets fed up of all this
juz now i view my bf's blog....everything he wrote inside his blog seems like he's mad at me,,,
i noe,he's angry at me coz i took picx wif my guy frens...but,juz to let U noe that they are juz FRIENDS....not my special ones...get it rite will u?
dont juz accuse me of something im not....
i treat them as FRIENDS ONLY,...nothing more than that....
i noe that im to be blame too for taking picx wif a guy fren of mine w/o asking for ur permission first....I AM SORRY....
im not the only girl who took picx wif the guys,my bestfren Fiza also took picx wif them ....
i noe u hate it....then juz tell me straight,dun hv to tell it thru ur profile when i view it...
we alweiz fought bcoz of all this matter...it seems like we are no longer compatible for one another...
i bet that now u noe wat it feels like to be in my shoes rite now...
hurt isnt it when ur love ones do this to u?i noe it coz i hv gone thru this....
i juz kept shut and wait and wait & wait for u to see urse;f wat is wrong wif u in the first place.....
do u ever care abt my feelings when i see and see ur picx wif ur ex gf,Ruth in ur facebook album....u were hugging her and it hurts me,do u noe that!!!!
my frens kip on asking me whose that girl u been hugging in the picx,i cnt answer them anything...tahu tak!!! i juz smile and act as if i didnt care but actually i care...
it hurts to see u and ur ex gf in the same picx together...
u might think why i alweiz say abt ur past but its bcoz of U...!!! U! U! U!!!!
u hurt me than u ever see it ....
i never had my exes picx in my photo album,.....i hv thrown it all away juz bcoz i really love u...
but u,u still kip it....
do u noe that my heart breaks into pieces when i see u and her....u hugging her...
now i noe where i stand....im nothing to u....ryte?
from the dae i got to noe u till now.,,,that picx u took wif ur ex gf,Ruth is still there.....that's good....
thanks alot eyh u!....kip la watever u want to kip and say watever u want to say....
dont think i will forget wat u hv done towards me....kayy....
the way u act infront of ur ex and the way u treat shirley...it HURTS!!
i gets tired of all this....
u take me for granted,i noe im weak but that doesnt mean u cn easily hurt me as u like,,,,
IM NOT A DOLL FOR YOU TO PLAY WITH....!!!!!!!!get that rite inside ur mind....!
i hv never been soo harsh like this before...but becoz of u...im like this....
all my guy friends noes that im already attached to U and i noe my limits,they too noe their limits....
some of them also kip their distance away from me bcoz they noe im attached to u....but U!! u really ....argghhh!!!!
if u dun believe wat i say,go and ask them urself...go!
everytime we met one another,u will ask for my hp and browse thru it....but,nvr onces i check on ur hp....
that dae when we are at kfc,ur hp rang...when i ask u who called u,u said u dont noe...
its the same old trick guy's will do to lie to us[girls],rite?
im not like other girls who check on ur hp and see whose u been contacting lately....i noe,coz its personal and privacy....i respect it...
i trust u that u will not to anything bad behind my bck....but u,u seems to not trust me....u check thru my phone,my contacts,my messages and my picx....i dun really mind coz i noe ur my bf,u hv the rite...but,it seems like u take me for granted....
if i hv somebody else behind my bck,i wouldnt hv let u browse thru my phone....haizzz...
i really dun noe wat will happen to us now....
i cnt stand ur attitude....i tot u were different from other guys,but u were juz the same as them....
5 months wif u,i hv learn abt ur true colours....
if u want to leave,u may do so....i ikhlas....i noe im a useless girl....im sure u will find a better one that will stand by u everytime....
if u wish to leave,juz leave....i wont force u to stay....theres no point holding onto something that doesnt want to be hold on to...
i leave everything to Allah swt....Biar Allah yang menentukan apa yang terbaik utk diri i....

assalamualaikum warahmatullah hiwabarakatuh