♥ Wednesday, March 17, 2010 @ 10:36 AM
assalamualaikum warahmatullah hiwabarakatuh
selamat pagi smue....good mawnink to all
roziana is back again!
heyleww!! watz up peeps?????
like usual,im in my room again....alone...updating my blog && drinking a canned drink[guess wat..??im drinking lemon barley] yummie tawuu!!!!tgh haus2 nie,minum ape2 pun sedap lurr kn3??btl tk??ha ha ha...
ohya!todae is....off dae for me again....haizzzzz....such a tiring part coz hv to stay at home nothing to do...boring nyeeerrr!!!
not forgetting,yesterdae i met my dear dear fiza :) i went to her house ...wanna find someone to talk to....when i reached her house,she was alone....not long after that,her mum and her sis reahed home too....i salam fiza's mum hand and sit again infront of fiza's comp surfing the net looking for our [me & fiza's] fav songs....he he he
then,at ard 7 plus at nite....after maghrib prayers,we went down to shop for ice cream....yay!
we bought 1 tub of ice cream...and we sat at the playground not far from fiza's house and ape lagy?MAKAN ice cream la!hahaa....
we talk and talk & took picx too....nice siaa!!!luv it alot.....such a nice picx taken wif nite scenery....awww!!! :) fadhillah,awak!next time join kite and fiza mamam ice cream kayy???hehehe....best tawuuu!
at ard 10 plus....i went bck....i took bus numbered 45 home.....reached home at ard 10:55pm...granny is waiting for me,i had my bathe and we had dinner together-gether....soo romantic kn3?? after that,tido lurrr....hahhaa...
juz now,i woke up at ard 7:35am....kinda late for me... -_________- arrghh!!!
i rush to the ladies and had my bathe and then took breakfast wif granny....ciannnyerr nenek tgu nana...sorrie nenekku sayang!
after i finish my breakfast,i clean up my house and do some household chores....standard la!as a girl i hv to do all this ,moreover its gd for my future later onwards....he he he ^.^
lps smue keje uma dh abes uat td...i went down to market to buy some green leafy veggies,coz granny wants to used it for cooking todae....ape agaknyerr nenek masak nari eyh??? hu hu hu ......
yesterdae....bf called me when im in the bus otw to fiza's house...
u,listen here...im not trying to find all ur flaws and blame u for everything....
i myself do make mistakes and make u mad at me...i was wrong too for doing u like this...
but,i dont noe if we cn be like we used to be before....i no longer is US animore....
each dae,i see U & ME drifting away from one another....we fight too often already....
before,u were never like dis to me....but now,its totally different...
we fight,quarrel and argue everytime....and it kips going on and on....
u might think why i alweiz brings up ur past whenever we fight,rite?
here i tell u why....its becoz it gots to do wif u....and it hurts me whenever i think of it....u might think its easy to forget and to forgive...its easy to forgive a mistake but its never easy to forget it....get that clearly!
dont think im weak u cn do me like this...i still remember the status u post on ur fb that says 'i dun noe why i soften up with her,maybe bcoz she's someone special to me...if not i will treat her like fwb[friends with benefit]..'
i wont forget this....this is a very strong evidence that u never truly love me from the start....
juz like one Malay proverbs that says; "setelah madu habis,sepahnya dibuang"....
now i noe ur true colors....5 months is not a short period,5 months we are together,i hv learned the person u are....
u tak pernah cintakan i sejujurnya....u permainkan cinta dan kasih sayang i kepada u....u buat i seperti barang,bila u perlu u gunakan,bila u tak memerlukan,u akan buang i begitu sahaja.....
i ingatkn u berbeza dari lelaki2 yang i pernah kenal dahulu,tp sayangnya,u same saje mcm dorg smue....U TAKE ME FOR GRANTED......do u realise that?do u???
remember something?
if u forget...i'll remind u kayy....
read this post of urs on the 15 of march 2010....
i dun noe guys wad is she trying to do..
i been in her situation before where you see her friends everyday at work..
happy2 have the time of your life at work with good friends..
n sooner or later you will forget those who really care for you..
yah you may say I"m wrong n I'm just jealous..
yah denial is common..
but the funny things is the evidences is piling up everyday..
n you may think i won't notice it..but i did..
i know what you are doing that u knw i hate knwing..but still..
i leave it up to you..one day you will know it..
n who knows,by then i may not be here anymore..
so do think kay..
enuf reading wat u post on ur blog??
u said all this...not me....rite?
ur the one who wants to leave,so juz leave....i wont stop u....do everything as u like,no one will put a stop to it....
u go ur own way and i go my way.....theres no used staying on the same path if we alweiz hv so much misunderstandings between us....
moreover theres no point holding on if we are drifting apart each single dae....
im sure,u will soon mit wif someone that will love u more than i do....i noe we are not meant to be....
furthermore,im not up to ur standard....ur a polytechnic student whereas im juz an ITE student...far beyond urs....i noe where i stand...i cn nvr stand on the same row as u do....
i tidak akan menghalang pemergian u.....pergilah ke mana sahaja yang u ingin tuju....
terime kaseh kerane telah menjadi kakasih hati i yang amat prihatin terhadap diri i....mungkin ini adalah jalan yang terbaik utk kite berdua....semoga u akan bertemu dgn gadis yang akan menyayangi u and mengasihi u setiap masa....
jika kita ditakdirkan bertemu dikemudian hari,jangan bimbang,...i akan mengingati u kerana u pernah hadir dlm diri i.....
walaupun berat hati i utk melepaskan u tp,i redha ke hadrat Ilahi....i akan ikhlaskan u pergi....
sorry readers,im kinda not in the mood to talk now....
will update whenever im free kayy...
assalamualaikum warahmatullah hiwabarakatuh
