♥ Thursday, March 18, 2010 @ 11:05 PM
Assalamualaikum warahmatullah hiwabarakatuh
goodnite to all readers....
anw,im sorie to all due to my small font that makes it harder to be read... sorry...
umm,guess wat?im alone again....coz granny slept already,left me only...nehh,thats ok...
juz now me,fiza,cathy[my manager] & khai went out together....the 4 of us went to makan @ sakura at clementi outlet....its my first time been there....the place is very spacious and they serve alot of food....yummy!that means,we had our lunch there....but,something happen....something sad....while having our lunch,my manager's phone rang....she tot it was her friend....BUT ITS NOT....it was our boss...he called to tell a bad news....umm,i was sad to noe that khai was terminated due to some reasons.....after we noe the bad news,our mood seems to be ruin by it...me and fiza kinda not in the mood to eat although we are hungry....we are sad....yes,very sad coz khai is being terminated....we tried to find any solution to help khai but theres nothing we cn do...everything has happen...i noe khai is sad,but he didnt show the sadness that he's gg thru....i respect u khai....stay strong kayy khai,hope u cn adapt to ur new job...insyaallah....
kayy2,lets cheer up alittle....after we finish our lunch,we took bus no. 143 from clementi to orchard....guess wat we are up to????anyone wanna make a guess?? ha ha ha....the 4 of us actually wanna catch a movie....its a rainy dae mind u.....we didnt bring umbrella soo,we juz ran although its raining heavily.....we catch a movie at orchard cineleisure.....all of us watch a movie entitled 'The book of Eli'.....it is NC16 movie....theres quite a number of violent scene ....scary siaa! i close my eyes many,many times coz i cnt bare to see the violent and all....but,its a nice movie.....do catch the movie whenever ur free kayy! :)
after the movie end,we went straight to the ladies...ehemm,ehemm....[coz the natures are calling us...]ha ha....
we then make our way out of the orchard cineleisure....our manager,Cathy,wanna go walk2 at Ion orchard...soo,we went separate ways....me,fiza & khai went to take train back...khai alight at bishan coz he wanna go for an interview....hope u will get that job khai....whereas,me and fiza alight at amk....hehee...my hometown....
we went to amk hub and took bus no. 22 bck....i send fiza home and then,i went home....
i waited soo soo soo long for the bus to arrive....but its ok coz i hv my mp3 to accompany me while waiting for the bus...i reached home juz now at ard 9 plus...had my bathe then my dinner,and watch tv for awhile....then,after that...here i am infront of the computer blogging....Duhh!
time checked,its 11:38pm now.....
feeling quite bored and tired too....moreover,tmr im working....soo,it means i must sleep early...rite???hahaha...
dun worie kayy,im not sleepie yet....still awake....when im sleepie i will inform alrite... :)
umm,juz now i view my bf 's blog....i read every single thing he wrote in his blog properly...
to bf,i noe i do make mistakes too....but,i try my best to amend it....i try to save our relationship but,due to some of this matter....its becoming more and more worst....
u said that im not serious in our relationship???how cud u say that thing to me....im serious in everything i do,get it!juz bcoz i nvr reply ur txt msges wif i love you and i miss you,u say all this things to me....huh?u said i seldom used our ring,rite??then wat abt u??u didnt remember is it abt the first silver coloured ring we had together that u said u lost it....?tk igt ke tuu smue???perlukah i igtkn u tentang perkare nie?....
i nvr make things big & worst when u said u lost our first ring,and for such a long period u nvr used the ring...im the only one who wears it....but now,u said that i seldom use our 2nd ring...kayy fine,im sorry for that....reflect first before u criticize me....ur the one who start it first,NOT ME....ur the one who love talking abt ur ex,NOT ME....soo,does that mean its my fault again???try and reflect by urself.....im tired of all this alr....
and one more thing,u like to say that u understand me....but actually u dont....ur not me soo,u cnt understand wat im gg thru rite now...u have everyone in ur family,u hv ur parents by ur side....but,its way different for me....unlike me,i dont hv my father anymore....my father has passed away and im left wif my mother only....i came from a broken family and u dont now wat it feels like to be in my position....my life is full of bloody misery....u might think that i live a happy life but i dont....thankx to Allah swt,that i still hv my granny,granddaddy,mummy,sis & bro here wif me....they completes my life....and U,u too completes me but now,everything has gone to a different direction...we no longer like before,we are drifted apart each dae....its sad to noe it but,this is what happening rite now....soon,our love will fade....u will soon hate me for all the nonsense i hv done like making u mad at me whenever i bring up abt ur past history....i noe u will....
u said in ur blog that im not serious,isnt it?then,hv u ever ask urself how serious u are towards me?reflect this bck to ur innerself... dulu bila mula2 kite berkenalan hingga saat kite bercinta,u btl2 sweet....u make me go crazy for u whenever u say all those sweet things like messaging me a sweet2 quote like u used to give me before....but now,its different....last time,u used to send more than 15 txt msges each dae asking me wat im doing and hv i had my lunch or dinner and everything but now,u juz msg me juz to say gd morning and to ask wat im up to and to ask if i alr had my lunch....thats all...i noe and i admit that sometimes i nvr reply ur msg and nvr pick up ur call,i admit i was wrong and im sorry for all that i hv done....i noe that i hv hurt u countless times,i am sorry....but its hard for us to get bck like before...coz we no longer understand one another and we alweiz argue...haizz....why is it called love if we always gets hurt....i gets soo fed up of all this...tired of getting hurt and fighting each dae....Ya Allah,tolonglah hambaMu ini.....
now,its 12:30am....its morning already...
im sleepie and not in the mood anymore...im tired of saying it again and again everydae...
i wanna sleep now....kayy till nxt chapter readers :)
goodnite to all....oupps!sorry...i mean,gd morning to all!!.....valediction!
assalamualaikum warahmatullah hiwabarakatuh
